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MY EMOTIONAL BLINDNESS

MY EMOTIONAL BLINDNESS

Published on 9 February 2023

I lived under a mask, the temporary solution to deep-rooted problems. Looked like I had it together. Struggling to keep up as I lived under two worlds, what I wanted people to pay attention to and what I was suffering from.

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Transcript
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I lived under a mask, hiding my
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Negative Past
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Failures
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Doubts
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Uniqueness
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Fears
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Desires
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Weaknesses
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Insecurities
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Bitterness
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Conflicted within, and battling to hear God
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Confidently looking  like I had it together
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Disconnected from me and lost 
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Controlled by urges while drowning in the pit of masking
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Masking was similar to being buried alive. Negativity plunged DEEP into the roots of my heart. The layers and layers of masking CONFINED me while choking my life away. The temporary solutions kept me in the DARK while normalizing negative behaviors. Pride kept me LONELY from asking for help.
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But all was not lost.
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I had a tiny spark of HOPE that God ignited to be alive again.
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Just as God asked Ezekiel in 37:3 If the bones could live and He told him to prophesy to them to  hear the word of the Lord!
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I surrendered and I was renewed. Freed from the shackles of living under a mask
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